REMINISCENCE

Creativity trickles during exam time. Sounds strange but is absolutely true. I bet. Now the exams are over head and so is my overbusy mind churning stories of diverse and passionate experiences. The life, full of ups and downs is one of the most amazing things ever happened to man kind. The pleasures of future and the lessons of past together make the greatest cocktail one may ever experience. I’m delighted that I was born human. But being an engineer is utterly monotonous. It makes us totally unhuman. The same thing being taught for decades by the same faculties who have refused to change themselves. Always basking in the glories of their past they do not realise that this present is entirely different from the past. But whatever be the case, all that is required at present is something natural, something totally different. Is this possible?

HEY WHAT ABOUT A CHILDHOOD STORY! THIS WILL BE THE RIGHT THING TO TAKE AWAY THE BOREDOM..............................................

When I was in class eight, there was a girl named shreya. A damshell in every sense, she was very down to earth, a quality very rare in beautiful girls. Boys were like anything but mad after her. But she was not interested in all these things. She always said, “We have got such a small life. Why to waste it in such silly things ”. I just loved watching the way she carried herself. Ah! It was an amazing experience that childhood, I wish I could live it again, She was just immaculate. There was not a trifle fault in her creation. Perhaps god too would have been amazed after what he created. We used to go to schools together, her home being just a few metres away from mine and I loved this period more than anything else I wished in those days. We used to talk a lot about so many trivial things, she telling me her dreams and wishes and I just watching her, her smile, her composure, everthing being at its best. It was just awesome. I don’t know what it means to be in love. But during those days, whenever I read any book, its words looked like forming her image and I lying on my bed thinking what she would have been doing now. I wrote in my diaries at nights- what I felt about her, how much she excites me and how her presence fills me with a new passion a new desire to see good in everything. Even her voice was complimentary to her face. Now a days those diaries are in the possession of my mother and whenever my sister has to get some undue advantage from me she just brings out this diary thing in front of my father.

There are so many happy memories of her, everytime I close my eyes and they flash in my mind. One day I was in my school and a boy suddenly proposed her. I was also at the same place where this happened. She just said pointing her finger towards my side, “If you could be like him I would accept your proposal”. I asked that boy to just try some other day as she didn’t seem in the mood to accept his offer. The boy told me that she wanted me. I just laughed and said to him. “You have gone mad”.I was too dumb at that time to even think that this could happen to me. My soul was just not prepared to accept that she could even think of me in her moments. Now when I talk to some of her friends, thery say that she really liked me but couldn’t say this to me. How can I tell them that the same case was with me too.

I remember the last day we talked was when she had to know something about Shymali, three years back. I took admission in NIFFT and changed my number. I didn’t give her my number because I was unable to handle the pain I always got when I talked her. Unfortunately, she also changed her number after sometime and now I am sitting in front of my notebook writing stories about her without knowing where she actually is. Recently I heard one of my friend telling that he met her and she was asking about me, how I was and she was glad to know that I am about to be a responsible person, the only pinch she had was why didn’t I prepare for the IITs again.

IT HURTS

Standing in front of all is a person who wants to understand people but each time he tries, his life slaps him right on his face. Each time he thinks it to be the last time, he is betrayed again. Unable to defend himself he sits in the corner of his room, but the ghost of dejection never stops hounding. Is it his fate! He cannot speak his mind and people take advantage of that. He tries to be nice to everyone but ends up facing hostility from them. But he will not understand this because he is a stubborn idealist. He believes people will understand him someday honour him for what he is. But isn't it a belief only which cannot be real. Just like some people believe in utopia doesnot mean it will ever be. It is not worrying what he believes in but he continues to believe in the same. May better sense prevail in him!!!!!!!!!!!

LOST TO A FRIEND

 

Stabbed in the back, it was hard to believe

But, true to see.

History repeated itself, only the actors changed

A friend betrayed another friend.

He Promised tall and conspired back,

was the real threat unnoticed.

And now when the pain is annihilating

Unable to resist, I lost,

Lost to someone as close as my friend.

A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT

Sleeping birds, sleeping trees and myself at night

cold breeze blowing slowly,

simmering down tired souls

The trees shine gold in vapour light

And so the grasses,

holding cold water in their arms.

Watching all this amidst edifice,

I rejoice in ecstasy

marvelled by the night deep

wondering when would I sleep!!

OPEN SOURCE TECHNOLOGY: THE NEXT BIG THING

 'Open source Technology' is the hot favourite topic of debate among the digital technocrats of 21st century. Relatively less heard in our country, this concept has gained substantial recognition in recent times in developed countries with both its supporters and opposers equally contributing in its spread. It originated due to the reckless behaviour of a few monopolistic technological giants who started taking undue advantages of the technologies they developed by making them their proprietary rights. The propagators of open source technology believe that human knowledge belongs to the world and one of its primary aim is to provide the users its source code so that it remains in the public domain for modifications which will ultimately help in improving them.

With governments all over the world recognizing its existence, its use is bound to increase very rapidly over the next few years. Our Indian government has also initiated a number of steps to incorporate it in our system. Government run agencies are using them in full. Days are not far away when open source technology will take over the proprietary technology paving the way for a technologically better and prosperous human future.

COMMUNALISM – THE DEVIL INSIDE

One of the most important and unfortunate discoveries of current election campaign going all over the country has been Varun Gandhi, a Gandhi less written about and less known to us a few days back. He was the other Gandhi, a not so prominent one, a Gandhi with the political identity crisis in the renowned Nehru-Gandhi family.

He had been there in BJP recognized by his mother Maneka Gandhi's identity. The Present election brought before him a chance to create his own identity when he got the opportunity to contest the Parliamentary election. Devoid of the Gandhi Karishma which his cousin and the past members of Nehru Gandhi family had, He found himself unable to carry an election campaign to victory on his shoulders alone. He required to produce something different within himself which could instantly bring him in limelight and take him to new political heights. Faced with a dearth of options he produced that extra thing in the form of speeches he delivered while addressing election rallies in his constituency.

The venom he spitted against a particular community was not new to our country where eve after living together for six decades after independence majority of the people of different communities still see one other with suspicion. But, the magnitude and the manner in which he did it was unprecedented and shocked every responsible citizen.However what followed next was equally shameful with every political party trying to gain political mileage over others. Instead of arguing now over whether he said such things or not and whether it was a political conspiracy to malign him as alleged by him, everyone should look within himself . Even after such unfortunate incident there were many people who were trying to project his theory as the right one. Any such attempt was absolutely ridiculous. Now, time is ripe for a thorough honest introspection finding out if interstices of our mind contain the dangerous seeds of communalism.

A careful analysis of such introspection will surely reveal a dangerous trend of such seeds being already converted to plants in our mind. People should also assess the fact that given the same opportunity we won't commit the same mistakes as those committed by the likes of Varun Gandhi.

The constituent of our country declares it to be secular and majority of us take the pride in calling ourselves secular. But It is sarcastic to say Incidents like Varun Gandhi get so much attention and support. This shows the height of hypocrisy of our thinking. The hyperactivity of pseudo seculars which form the masses ensure that such incidents constantly remain in People's attention while the basic governing issues take the sidelines.

The cause of such uncivilized behaviour are hidden in the way the present society exists and the solutions are there in itself too. The present myopic viewpoint and the increased intolerance in our society due to historical reasons and some present unfortunate incidents are not only hindering our present progress but also blocking our future prosperity. The society is threatening to go from where it began. The solution to counter such trends lie in the opening up of society and increasing amalgamation among people of different communities. Intellectuals will have to come forward strongly taking responsibility for the welfare of people and promotion of tolerance among the people. The society requires complete makeover with focus on collective well being. Somebody has rightly said, “United we stand divided we fall”. If everybody stands together for harmony there is no doubt it will never be lost.

THE GLOBAL ECONOMIC RECESSION--when is it going to over

SCENE-1:
April 18 2008

I was reading frequently about the US sub prime crisis in the leading newspapers. I asked my Economics teacher if he could explain me what that fuss was all about. He said, "People are defaulting on the home loans they took from the banks and this is pushing a lot of banks into very uneasy situation where they may also go bankrupt although the chances are very unlikely. By the way don't think too much about this as it's not a big deal for our country. There are a lot more important economic problems in our country to discuss".

SCENE-2:
October 18 2008

A friend to me: Yaar, when is this recession going to end. Look what has happened! Companies are not coming for campus selection any more. Besides, existing employees are losing their jobs, while some people are saying that it may continue for the next 2 or 3 years. Do you have any idea how serious is this?
I Said, " Look, Whatever information I have at present It seems that the situation is quite horrible and may get worse in the coming months if appropriate measures are not put in place. Besides about when this will end, how can I say when the leading economists of the world are in confusion about its duration ".

SCENE 3:
April 18 2009

Lying in my bed I was recollecting my past memoirs. Suddenly something struck my mind. On September 15 I was walking through the corridors of 3rd year hostel. A friend came from behind and asked, "Did you hear the news?". "What happened?", I replied. He said, "Lehman Brothers has filed for bankruptcy and Bank Of America is going to buy Meryll Lynch". I knew that Lehman Brothers was an investment banking company dealing with some kinds of financial products and the dream company of the post graduate students of the prestigious IIMs of our country. So, It was a little interesting for me to know exactly what happened. I went to my room and checked the latest news on Google. The first news was about the bankruptcy of Lehman Brothers. The news had some other interesting informations but I didn't read further. At that time I was completely unaware of the implications of this event. The very next day the newspapers were full of articles about how this was going to affect the global economy. They also contained some uncommon economic terms and the most used among them was 'Recession'. I thought recession! But, How could the fall of a single company bring it. For me it was as if the situation was being presented in a graver manner than what it was. But, sooner I realised that the situation was really worrisome. I searched about recession on Internet although I had a little information about this owing to my association with Economics some time back. I found some useful facts. One of them was the Keynsian theory put forward by John Meynard Keynes in which he had described the necessary measures to check recession. According to him in the time of recession monetary measures do not work. The government requires to put fiscal measures in place to tackle it. Further I found some relatively new economic theories stating that the Great depression of 1930s was actually the result of mistakes committed on part of the governments and the economists and that the recession could not come now. Also some economists had suggested that if the recession came the developing countries would be the least affected because of their relative insulation from the world economy and any upcoming financial crisis could be handled with carefully adjusted monetary policy. Some highly enthusiastic economists had even discarded the Keynsian theory saying it was not more than a bundle of craps.

But as we all know now, recession has come and in full force. It has affected both the developed and the developing economies. The monetary measures are not working and the governments of different countries are opting for the large fiscal incentives and the bailout plans. I sometimes wonder how within a month's time the money went out of the market and the entire financial system crumbled. But a thorough examination of back events clearly shows that the seeds of present crisis was sown a few years back and it unfolded only when it became impossible for the corrupt and the greedy financial institutions to handle it. Those who created it, it took their lives first and then spread elsewhere. So, it was more than a month's affair. But, now as the different bailout plans and monetary measures have been announced, money has reached to the market and the credit squeeze is no more as dangerous as it was a few months back. Still ther is not much economic activities going around in place and that is only because of the fear of loss which is preventing the extra cautious banks to lend making it difficult for the cash strapped industry to survive. The recession infact now symbolises the the loss of trust among the bankers and the businessmen with both of them equally responsible for the present mess.

In the recent days, some glimpses of hope are being seen on the financial front with some people looking pro optimistic however as the noble laureate Paul Krugman puts, "History shows that one of the great policy dangers in the face of severe economic slump is premature optimism ", I think we should not be seeing too much positive at present and instead work more aggressively to take the economy out of the slump.

In case of India it has been hit more severely than expected. Still our economy will grow but at a slower pace. Recently, some good news have come forward. Prices of oil have gone down substantially and Sensex crossed the psychological mark of 11000 a few days back. Rural demand is still strong and a normal monsoon season is furthur going to work in our favour. Thus, things are looking positive on the Indian front too. But all things are not showing the signs of recovery. Industrial production growth is still negative . Job cuts are frequent and business groups are reporting losses everyday. Both the good and the bad elements are present in the economy and it is very difficult to decide which one is more strong. However there is little doubt about the fact that India and China would be the fastest recovering nations in the coming days and will be among the best placed to take advantages of the improved situation . So, may be in a few months from now, we would be able to see the clear signs of recovery and the stabilization of financial system torn apart by the recession. Till then the concerned authorities will have to put efforts tirelessly without losing hope. It will be a matter of time as to when their efforts pay the necessary dividends.

एहसास

ख़ुशी में भी दर्द  का एहसास क्या होता है

ये मैंने अब जाना है

जल बीच प्यास क्या होती है

ये मैंने अब जाना है

तनहइयां जो  मेरे अन्तरंग थी कभी

उन्हें खोने का एहसास क्या होता है

 ये मैंने अब जाना है।

कितने जश्न हुए जिनमें मैं भी शरीक था

शारीर साथ था पर मन कहीं दूर था

ढूंढ रहा था उस खुसी को ये

जिससे हर पल ये वंचित हर पल दूर था।

क्या यूँही भटकता रह जायेगा चंचल  मन

जिंदगी की तलाश में

या कोई झरना मिल जायेगा

बुझाने मन की प्यास को।

जिंदगी तो अब तक अधूरी ही लगी है

पतझड़ के पेड़ों की तरह

हलकी खोखली दिखी है

पर कोशिश है यही अब तक

बहर दूँ अपने अधूरेपन एहसास को

मन की प्यास को

कुछ कर गुजरने की छह से।

India at present

When I think of India at present my mind starts thinking of two ends of a river who can never meet. India is just like that; two different India sharply contrasting each other who can never be the same. At one end it is the world's second fastest growing economy and at the other end a home for the largest number of poors who cannot evn afford to have enough food for themselves. It has always been said, "India is a land of diversity". But is this the diversity about which we are proud? I think most Indians would reply a plain no. Then why is our country like this? Is there any solution? It is very easy to join the chores and condemn the government of the country when something is wrong. But it is equally tough to placce oneself in that situation and bring out a solution which is better than the previous one.

To me the solution seems in changing ourselves and changing the way we conduct ourselves in social and political contexts. The whole system needs revamping. To start with, people should begin to take active part in the political process of the country. Youth should come forward to take the responsibility of carrying the country firmly in the coming years of twenty first century. When we say that politics has become dirty, we actually make mockery of ourselves. The politicians are not aliens. They are the products of the same society where we born. A society does not stand alone. People constitute the society. Doesn't this mean people are the problems of the society and they themselves are its solution. If we think, we can conduct ourselves morally better in our public life, we should try to replace those politicians who have failed in their assigned tasks. Sitting idle and abusing the system won't do the damage control. If we can do something better and faster, we will be able to change the course of future of our country. If can not India will continue to show the diversity, the high society foreign social activist seek for; which they capture and show to the entire world slapping us right in our face for our disgusting inability.

The one billion Impotent Indians!

UNTITLED YET

The story deals with a boy whose younger sister was suffering from schizophrenia. The boy loved her sister much . But he could do nothing to improve the pathetic condition of her sister. As the days passed her sister's condition deteriorated furthur and ultimately a day came when her sister committed suicide. The boy who could never separate from her sister for a day had to pass the entire life alone without her sweet sister. He deviated towards the drugs and it became an addiction for him. How did he overcome his habbit and become one of the best neuro specialist in the world wait for the story to come.

विवशता

kya bataun main apne haal ko,
chahuonr phaile majboor halaton ke janjal ko,
nirasha pure nabh mein chhai hai
asha ki koi kiran na najar aayi hai.
ji raha hoon jis haal mein main
maut bhi usse sharma rahi hai..

kitne sapne the man-masthisk mein mere
kya kuch na karne ki ichchha thi meri
duniya har roj nayi lagati thi
nitya naye karm ko ye utprerit karti thi.


ab to main aisa hoon
apne aap se hi darta hoon
athak prayatno ke bawjood swayam ko vivash pata hoon.
vivashata jo mere har karm mein jhalakati hai
vivashata jo mujhe har pal tadpati hai

kabhi sochata hoon kya ho gaya hai mujhe?
kahan kho gaya hai tej mera?
kya vastavikta itni dardnak hoti hai
jindagi ko jahar bana deti hai.

kis galti ki saja maine pai hai?
din raat ki mehnat kya yahi rang laayi hai!
par lagta hai ab shayad
kuchh purane dino ki masti ne hi
ye durdasha banai hai.

ab to yahi niras niyati pai hai
ye jo maine apni jindagi banai hai

सेमेस्टर २-१ @ निफ्फ्ट

Well readers this is an intrinsic account of 2nd year 1st semester at National Institute of Foundry and Forge Technology in short NIFFT about whom many of you might not have known earlier.
To begin with was the the quest for finding the appropriate room in B.Tech. 2nd year hostel because the hostel authorities had provided us the opportunity to find out the room of our choice (here I'm talking only about boys because girls live in separate hostels or say in apartments. They are so few in numbers I imagine had it been a male college only, it would have been better) and get it allotted by them. So I came to the institute much earlier than the day when holidays were to be ended completely. After extensive research and intense considerations on all aspects I zeroed down on Room 207. The requirement now was to get its keys from the seniors who previously lived here. This was not an easy task because they (seniors) were not present and there was a grave danger of the room being booked by somebody else on cell. Waiting anxiously for two days at first year Hostel i got the final relief when I saw one of them. I immediately asked him for the key of his room and got it after a day when he shifted to the third year hostel.

Now my job was to clean the room first but stop actually I first brought my luggage here and later cleaned the room. Cleaning the room was a stiff task for me given my historical records of being at loggerheads with the concept of a student's room devoid of complexes in the form of dust and haphazard arrangements. At that time I was also remembering my would be room partner for he would have been a great help for me at that time. Anyway, I cleaned my room and arranged all the items at places where I thought they would be suit the best. By the time all these works finished, I found holidays had almost ended and it was now the time for registration to legally get admitted into second year. However results had not come out yet. Well it has always been the tradition of NIFFT to publish results of old semester a few days after the start of new one and surprise a few with year back tags at the time when they think they have almost won the battle. I'll not go much into its technicalities.

With the holidays over and registration complete it was now the time for start of new course but there was no Zeal in me about this as was in 1-1 or 1-2. But, there was another matter which occupied my mind through days and nights. It was a part of my dream which I had seen in my childhood and which with the joining of NIFFT had almost shattered. It was about being a computer engineer and playing with computers. Right from my childhood I had seen this dream. Although it had shattered now but a part of it could still be realized and I was trying to do just that: convince my parents about the viability of having a laptop in 2nd year. After little diplomacy and support of my mom I was able to convince my father to finance my sweet notebook. But the bigger danger arrived now, the danger of selecting the best out of the good ones. After much research I made my mind to buy the one from HP . Although its cost was slightly on the higher side but its look and performance record simply awed me. Now it was just the question of when and thank god I had not to wait for more. It was on 4th of August perhaps when the dream of having a notebook of my own realized. I still remember I had to spend more than three hours on roads wandering here and there because my father was very busy in his office work. So it was a late night show with me taking my notebook outside the shop around 10 PM quite lqte from Ranchi market standards. In general I do not stay at my house even it becomes quite late at night and return to the hostel but it was a different night because I was not single but with a costly notebook which may come in danger at night. So, I spent the night at my father's house and on morning returned to the hostel. In hostel I was greeted by a few when they knew that I had bought a laptop. I was in hurry because I had to attend the lectures and also it was Tuesday the day of most dreaded professor's lecture. I was just hoping it would go fine and I would start my affair with mine love, my notebook later in the evening.

Actually, I have not told you anything about my studies so far. At the start of second year I was expecting some good teachers. My expectations fell flat in my first class when i found the professor threatening to provide year back to the whole class in his first class. He was quite scary in his approach. If he found anybody napping or looking elsewhere in the class he sent him out. Such was his fear that I was not able to think of anything except him for two days every week on Monday and Tuesday when he had to take the class. Thank god now he does not teach us because he thinks we are too stupid to be taught by him. But he still hounds me in my dream and i wish I would not have to attend any of his class in my whole B. Tech. Life of four years. The rest professors and lectureres were ok and they could be handled with ease. So, the rest were not a problem for me but that single professor ruined my life for almost two months in 2-1.
Moving on, my affair with my computer had just started and it increased exponentially when I took the LAN cum net connection. Having net in the room was like having the entire world in your room: just click and see. For a few days I just went through the YOU TUBE as if I would watch each and every video available there. But that association soon came to an end when I found right click key of my notebook's touch pad had got damaged due to excessive Copy-paste of urls on YOU TUBE. It was a kind of shock to me but I found some solace in the fact that this is a genuine problem with the HP notebooks. Here I also realized the universal fact that all beautiful items should be handled with care be them living or non living. Thus the association with 'you tube' finally ended here.

At the start I was also quite suspicious of the activities of viruses. I had heard that these viruses damaged the system and one needed formatting the system to make them ineffective. Also I was quite afraid of the trojan horses when a friend of mine told me that they were the most dangerous and were present in plenty on LAN. I was so hesitant in using LAN or net that I opened only those sites which I thought were secure. At this time I had the help of my only companion, my Norton internet security 2008 trial pack of two months. It was so helpful that I still love Norton for its larger than life presence in antivirus sector. Sometimes I wondered my Norton security was not working properly because it never showed any virus detection when others computers had been showing nearly tens of viruses everyday. Lter I realized it was so because it removed the viruses before they could attack the system. It was also an example of how ignorance can limit your sense of thinking and prevent you from doing anything new.

With the chapter on viruses closed, it was the turn to explore net freely throughout the day and night. There was also a very natural curosity towards downloading anything that was present on net and it was painful to see downloading speed in few kbps and the most horrific to discover that net refused connection beyond 3 AM everyday because the server gets closed by this time. So I had to sleep everyday around 3-4 AM and I was not happy with this. I wanted to surf the whole night. “The early days of curosity” and when they got converted into necessity I just don't know. When I am writing this, It is 5 am in the morning and I don't know how long will this continue.
With the passing of each day the burden of studying the course increased more and more. Every day I decided - from the next day onward, I would read but that day never came. During the course of all these events the results of 2nd semester was out and to everybody's surprise including me, I was the topper. I never expected anything of this sort. Frankly speaking I was expecting something close to my previous semester grades but it was more than what I even dreamt. So the result was like a bucket full of water for somebody who was thirsty in the middle of a desert with no traces of any water source there. This result established my credentials as a good student in my eyes which I had lost since I entered this college. Also, it was a partial relief for me as I had lost interest in studies and was always looking for fun either this way or that way. I also became a little serious about my studies after this. But that was not enough because the mid semester exams were overhead and it required miraculous devotion towards study to bail myself out from the current situation of literal inconsistency. I succumbing to pressure left everything on god and took the risk of continuing my devotion towards my notebook. To my surprise this strategy worked and except for mathematics all other papers went well. I found a good relief when the mid exams finally got over.

Now it was again the time for opening the notebook which had been closed for five days due to exams. Also my subscription of antivirus had ended. So I had to install a new one. I searched net and got one Norton internet security 2009 trial pack of one month. With this the period of ultimate surfing started again. Just after a week our holidays for deepawali started and I headed towards home. Here there was no net . Only I know how did I pass a week there. Nevertheless, I ultimately returned back but found it very disappointing that my MAC address had been blocked which could only be rectified after a week . By this time classes had started regularly and it was also the time to arrange freshers' party for the juniors. Everybody was excited and some people to my surprise had made the plans for its execution too. Those plans were presented at a common meeting of all the students of second year. It was approved and everything seemed fine. But a bigger or say unfortunate surprise was waiting for us. The organizing committee started behaving like a bunch of autocrats who could keep the entire B.Tech second year at bay. Every measure to convince them went in vain and finally it was decided to change the committee after intense duel both verbal as well as physical. A new committee was decided under the able leadership of a good student and it organized Fresher party successfully. But this event helped me to understand what dirty politics can do and how does it reduces one's credibility. I won't name but I found a few people disgusting.

Fresher party ended and it was the time for the juniors to rag us in the form of parties and notes. For a few continuous days juniors used to come to me and others for notes and party. One thing is very common in all the juniors they see you with awe as if you are really very important personality. I found myself in the similar position when I was in first year and witnessed the same in second year. However this association also didn't go long way with juniors engaged in their assignments and preparation and me engaged in my love- my notebook.

End semester exams were nearing but I was unperturbed as if I had reached a place where these things were small for me. I decided that I wouldn't read anything before the exams started. My tendency of taking risks with the exams had increased in the last one year when I found It didn't matter really now how much you studied before, whatever you were destined in the exams you would get that. This was also a nice excuse for me to prevent myself from study. Such I have changed now that when I imagine my old days I find those were really golden periods of my study life. So the saga of non study continued for the day before the first paper of end sem exam. Just a day before I realized, I really holds a good chance of getting 'f ' (fail) in Maths if I do not study now . So the association with net ended here and now it was really the time for some serious study. Reading through half of the whole night I thought I would pass but wouldn't get good grades. The very next day it became true when I became able to solve only a handful of questions from the paper .Anyway I had read so less that there was no point in regretting about this. So , I focused on the next exams . With God's grace they all went fair if not well. I was happy with my performance in the exams because I really had not read anything in this semester but surfed only through the unexplored dimensions of internet.

But there was still a fort to conquer and that too was again the toughest- The task of clearing sessionals of maths which delayed due to our own reasons. When I had just given the end semester exam of maths I had decided I would prepare well for the sessionals. But that promise also couldn't divert my love towards net and it remained a hoax promise. Anyway, I gave sessional and its outcome was the same as of the end semester's maths exam- painful and depressing.
All the exams ultimately passed and it was now the time for some final joy and jubilations. The most positive outcome of this semester was that I have not to read maths anymore now in my next two and half years of B.Tech. Life. I loved Mathematics. But the way it was taught here, I just lost interest and I now just hope to pass in it any way. No desire for any association with maths. You can see how a student can be ruined by a teacher who doesn't know the latest trends of teaching, who is against the use of net by students and who thinks students should get placement after completing four years not before that. How ridiculous this whole thing is!
Anyway I'm now about to end this fable - the fable of passing a semester without any study, the saga of some bitter experiences of life and above all only partially achieved but still enough the discovery of my childhood love- my notebook. When I sit back and think about the last six months I find it taught me a good deal about the complexes involved in a human life and helped me evolve more matured.


With best wishes…………….
SHASHANK